Last week was a pretty emotional week for me regarding my health. I had two appointments.
The first appointment was with my Endocrinologist. The first thing we discussed was that I had gained a couple of pounds since my last visit three months ago. Honestly, I thought I had done much worse since I had completely fallen off for a couple of months. She also did my A1C and it was 7.2 which is higher than the 7.0 it was last visit. This was disappointing, but again – not surprising. Ideally, she’d like for me to be under 6.0. So, of course, I have work to do. I need to get motivated again to reach my health and fitness goals and not allow my current stresses to continue to deter me. My next appointment with her is in November. It’s time to get it done.
My second appointment was with my OB/GYN. He’s probably the only doctor I hadn’t seen since my diagnosis so I had to tell him about my diabetes. I wanted to discuss with him how diabetes would affect my reproductive health and if there was anything that I should be concerned about. His first comments were that I should immediately tell him if I was planning to become pregnant. One of my main questions was “Does having diabetes automatically equate to having gestational diabetes?” PubMed Health defines Gestational Diabetes as high blood sugar (diabetes) that starts or is first diagnosed during pregnancy – usually diagnosed around the 24th week of the pregnancy. His response was that those are two different things as gestational diabetes starts during a pregnancy but as someone who currently has diabetes, I would be considered to have “diabetes in pregnancy.” Further he stated that any pregnancy I would have would be considered “high risk” and planning a pregnancy would be important.
According to the CDC:
Blood sugar that remains high in a pregnant woman with type 1 or type 2 diabetes can cause her baby to have the following health problems:
- Birth defects, especially of the brain, spine, and heart
- Increased birth weight
- Nerve damage to the shoulder during delivery
- Low blood sugar after birth
- Increased chance of overweight, obesity, and/or diabetes later in life
In a woman with preexisting diabetes (which includes type 1 and type 2), blood sugar that remains high can trigger or worsen certain health problems, including:
- High blood pressure
- Kidney disease
- Nerve damage
- Heart disease
Also, a woman with preexisting diabetes whose blood sugar remains high has an increased chance of:
- Preterm birth
This news CRUSHED me. That may be an understatement. I was devastated. So much, that I texted my mom and told her that I wasn’t having children and just getting a puppy. I mean, although my doctor never said, “Davina, you cannot have children.” all I heard were the negatives. The risks or harm to my unborn child and myself. As a childless woman in my thirties who would very much love to be a mother one day, I already think about all of the risks of getting older and having a child. Especially, since I’m not currently married or dating anyone. I am just feeling a lot of pressure and that the odds are against me. And now I’m filled with tons of worries.
- Is it even worth it?
- How would I deal with having a possible difficult pregnancy?
- What if I had a sick child? What about the guilt from that?
- If I decide to have a child, should I really wait much longer
- How would I feel if I never had a child?
- Should I explore other options?
It may seem like I’m overreacting, but these are my true fears. Things I really need to consider. I’m in a less unhappy and teary place this week, but these concerns are still there. And, I do feel like I need to make some choices for myself and possibly my future child(ren). But first, I need to bog down and get my diabetes under control because baby or not, I’m still at risk for so may health issues that will affect just me alone if I’m not well. And if I don’t take care of me, I know I can’t take care of anyone else.
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